messy entry

Today is a weird day. My morning started out bad. I have been trying to register something online and the site was down for several days. This morning, the site was finally up.. but the registration was already closed. That, being the first thing I experienced right after I got up, had already put a bad taste on my day. What a way to start my Tuesday.. with a bad luck first thing in the morning.

So I drove to my meeting and guess what I ran into as I walked towards the building? a ladder, blocking my way. All I need was a black cat standing next to it. Anyway, of course I walked around the ladder and safely got to my meeting.

During the meeting, I got to socialize with people from different businesses do some networking. I just notice that I like to observe people more than I aware. I pay attention to their clothes, their hair-dos, to their bags/whatever electronic accessories they have on. It was amazing.

There was this pretty girl, kinda chubby, but she has a very pretty face and lovely personality. She dressed great (very feminine, considering all other business women were wearing pants). She wore high heels and as I observed her shoes, I noticed she had blisters above her heels where edge of the shoes usually rubs against your skin (causes friction and later blisters). And I thought.. poor women.. why do we want to suffer wearing all these fashion/beauty product just to look good and pretty?? why???

I myself cannot stand wearing high heel shoes (trust me, I'd have worn it since a long time ago if only I could find a plethora amount for my size - 5). I'm not used to it and so far have only worn platform sandals (my fav) to help disguise my petiteness. I prefer to wear a simple flat sole shoes for offices. Yeah.. please don't try to picture it coz it isn't anything fancy or pretty.

Anyway.. I guess I just don't understand girls.. I was reading fashion magazine and it made me want to transform myself so badly. After I finish, I feel like I need a whole new wardrobe, a new set of make-ups (not that I use mine so often), and a gazillion of other cosmetic enhancement product. All and all, all I try to improve is my outer appearance. So what if I meet a guy (result of my hard work in cosmetic dept) and then later he finds out.. ohh.. this girl looks like this without a make up... what will he think/do? Am I in some way tricking people with my outer appearance..?

Ok.. I notice I have been rambling on and on without any purpose.. I mean.. my blog entry has gone astray.. I don't even remember what I was gonna talk about.. lol.. I guess it is a sign for me to go to sleep..